I Don't

I don't like my paintings.

Not any of them.

I'm trying to figure out what to do from here.

And what to do with all of my old works.

Last time I painted over everything I got in trouble with loved ones (the great grey-out)

After I've finished all of my Christmas pieces I want a rebirth.

Perfct timing, considering the New Year will be here.

What should I do, I wonder?
I want to carve into the flesh of the canvas and rip something out so brutal, so passionate, so...none of the stuff I've ever done.

Do I need a new medium?
Or just a new style?

I think I need to study.
And paint only from the heart.